Why Traditional Theology Wasn’t Enough for Me

Lately, I’ve been trying to define the path I’m on. A spiritual current that flows somewhere between faith and philosophy, between scripture and starlight. The truth is, I think I’ve always been here.

I’ve always been drawn to both theology and metaphysics. One reaches for meaning, the other for mechanism. Together, they form a strange intersection where prayer and physics shake hands. I used to think I had to choose one over the other, but lately, I’m realizing that the truth I seek lives in the space between.

If the theologian seeks to understand God, and the metaphysician studies the nature of reality itself, then the Metaphysical Theologian is the one who studies the heartbeat inside reality.

This isn’t about abandoning faith or replacing it with philosophy. It’s about recognizing that belief and inquiry belong together. To me, God isn’t just a being to follow but a system to explore, a consciousness that coded the universe with spiritual logic. Theology asks why. Metaphysics asks how. And somewhere between those two questions lies something profoundly alive.

When I read scripture, I see more than stories. I see patterns and symbolic code. When I meditate, I’m not escaping the world but tracing the circuitry behind it. When I pray, I’m not performing ritual; I’m syncing frequencies with the divine architecture itself.

Of course, this isn’t new. Humanity used to speak this way naturally. From Plato’s divine geometry to Thomas Aquinas’s rational theology, from Giordano Bruno’s infinite universe to Newton’s search for God in physics, the greatest minds once treated science, faith, and metaphysics as one continuum. Then the split happened — theology became dogma, science became sterile, and metaphysics was pushed to the edges as superstition.

Maybe rediscovering this blend means remembering that the split was never real.

Being a Metaphysical Theologian doesn’t mean claiming authority or starting a movement. It just means walking the path of integration. Treating reality as divine revelation and consciousness as the medium through which it speaks. It’s about rediscovering that to understand God is also to understand the machinery of being itself.

I don’t have all the answers. But I think I’m finding the right kind of questions.

---

Originally posted on my Substack Fragments and Frequencies.

Seth Metoyer is a writer, artist, and audio engineer exploring theology, metaphysics, heavy music, and modern creative tools. With 25+ years in music and film, he writes for outlets like Heaven’s Metal Magazine and runs the independent label Broken Curfew Records. His work lives in the tension between faith, doubt, tradition, and the questions most people avoid asking.